Things are getting more and more eccentric at Casa de la Swain. Changing styles in my textile work, falling in love again with painting and photography...and then there is the ever illusive quest for continuing creativity through working with Eric Maisel. Still on the road teaching, posting now at the Ragged Cloth Cafe and taking the pledge to keep handmaiden up to date.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Lamentations

I have nothing to say....shock. I am doing nothing but being. My sleep cycle is totally out of whack. Staying up until the sun comes up, getting about three hours of sleep....trying to motivate myself to work but quite frankly just not interested. What is wrong with me? Such self-indulgence you have never even thought of. I have stopped rowing, sewing, painting and any other useful or creative thing.
The lack of posting is because there is nothing happening that you would even want to read. I did clean the studio just so I could not work in it...don't want to get it all messy. Maybe it is separation anxiety since I finished my work with Eric....better said I had deadlines for him that had to be met.However, I don't feel anxious; I just don't want to do anything.
Basically I am experiencing temporary uselessness. I would have said momentary instead of temporary but that would have implied that I might do something in a minute.....and we all know that isn't going to happen.
So dear readers, I leave you indolent but healthy, contemplating when I will make art again.....probably, possibly, positively.

10 comments:

Karoda said...

My first instinct is to moan for what you described...but ya know, I've got to believe that what you describe is just the way it is sometimes and thus must serve a purpose also...hangeth in, you'll be riding high again.

Mrs. Mel said...

So glad to hear you have not opened a vein.

There is such a thing as being starved and needing to feed the muse.

And then of course, the muse goes on vacation...

Caitlin said...

Sometimes you need downtime. Sometimes you also need a friend to kick you in the butt and say "Do Something, ANYTHING!". Whichever it is, best wishes, sweetie!

Debra said...

Thank goodness you are still kickin'! After you uber-productive year, maybe your spirit needs a rest. Or maybe you are just sleep deprived.

Valeri said...

I am in exactly the same boat. Doing nothing! Not even blogging! But I'm not anxious as I think I shall call this hibernation and know that when I awake the muse will be fresh and alive. I'm sure it will be the same for you. I bet the brains working away there subconsiously though! Enjoy the lull!

teri springer said...

Yep- I think you kept going until the tank was empty and you were running on fumes. Don't lament! Relax! Recharge! We ALL need a break some time!

teri

Gerrie said...

I'm feeling much the same - in the creative doldrums. Hope it passes soon.

Felicity said...

I'm a long time admirer/lurker so hope you don't mind a comment here. Like others, I believe this is a necessary and natural part of the creative process but I know you have an interest in astrology too - do you know that there are 5 planets in retrograde right now (and Mercury about to go too)including yours, Pluto? It's like trying to run in treacle. Maybe just time to absorb and be ready for when the muse returns.

MargaretR said...

Like all the others, I think everyone needs a little rest now and then. You will return full of inspiration when the time is right and we'll be there.

Rosalind said...

Think these lulls in activity are just part of the creative spirit. Every now and again everything needs to recharge and then it will be full steam ahead again.

I think the downside is coping with what feels like the lack of achievement in a lull!

This too will pass!